12/12/2015 ©

God Knows You

I call her an emotional vampire
She’s a reckless force 
She walks the empty halls of her empire
Sitting high on her fancy horse

And she calls upon her admirers
Easy to manipulate and mold
Jump high they jump higher
They always do what they’re told

Feel free to never have an opinion 
She’ll tare your self esteem to pieces 
Buy her friends by the dozen
And dispose of them as she pleases

Watch her prey upon the weak
You only see what she wants
They cling to every word she speaks 
Brainwashed blinded and bought

Hear her brag her prestige
Her narsasissms an art 
She’ll make you beg on your knees
Just to more easily cut out your heart

But her fowollers are many
Her disguise is one of a kind
With personalities a plenty
They change like she changes her mind

I know blood is thicker than water
But just remember I’m crazy
She publicy destroys her own daughter
Fabricating lies to deface me

She degrades me as a mother
The words she uses to protray me
Throwing sticks and stones at eachother 
My own blood & bones have betrayed me

I still hold out with hope
Cause I pray one day you will change
But you’d rather sit back and choke 
On your anger and your rage

I chose to swallow and forgive
There are no reasons to distort
Sit back and miss the life they live 
You have grandkids and lifes to short

You’d rather choose to live in war Thangive and receive an I’m sorry
Your always there keeping score
And we are never even, are we?

This is some 3rd generation shit 
And it’s a tragedy to relive 
Another broken mother daughter relationship 
Tough love received just like you give

She must have thought you didn’t need her
Similar how you both thought wrong
You said she never believed in you either
One day you came home and your mom was gone…

At least you always had your dad
You said he was always there to help
But for me when things got bad
I had nobody else.

You told me to get of your life
Block your number, your ashamed 
If I so choose to stay his wife
That’s me being disowned just the same

I still think of you day to day
And the effect you’ve had on me
 It’s sad that life turned out this way
And why do you still keep tabs on me?

You want pictures of my children 
why not see them for real? 
You’d be proud of the girls I’m building 
But proud isn’t something you can feel...

And neither is forgiveness 
You know my heart breaks for us both
So as you and god as my witness
Once again "I didn’t know-under oath"

The years are counting down our youth
And the things we’ll never get to say
I pray god shows to you my truth
One day when you pass away

Just know I’ll still forgive you
No matter how many years come and go
After everything we’ve been through
You should have believed in me...how could you not know?

And how could you not though?

While were both still picking sides
Just remember we chose the same
Here the story has many sides
Over eachother we chose last names

But god knows me and god knows you
God knows the truth fact for fact
The only thing I can say is true
Is only one of us feels good knowing that.