Summer the first time…

Nicola Grayson
Aug 9, 2017 · 2 min read

So here it is. My first ever blog post. I've wanted to write one for a long time but writing takes time (which I haven’t had much of) and it takes courage (which I am trying to cultivate) so here it is.

I’m not going to say too much because I don’t want to restrict myself for future posts and I don’t want to get in my own way… this is a frustrating habit of mine.

Suffice to say, I am writing because I am a writer and I am trying to be brave enough to show my work to other people or at least let it out into the world whether other people read it or not.

It is quite a relief to get the first post out of the way. It also makes me feel proud of myself for trying this out; for taking the leap and letting go of all the worries and thoughts that have been holding me back. This is a landmark post for me. I’m jumping off the cliff, into the sea and whether I sink (never to be seen again) or whether I swim for as long as I can, I’ve still moved on from where I was before.

I remember a classmate of mine at the end of our MA Philosophy course articulate how he felt about what he’d learnt. He came from Greece to study in Manchester, he said: “I can never go back to the person I was”. The bridges had been burnt and he had changed irreversibly in a fundamental way concerning how he thought about himself, about the world, about art, knowledge, technology and morality. This sounds like a profound comparison to make but I am thinking about it like this: even if I never write or share another post I shared this one, and the person I was before — who wanted to write but stood in her own way — is not the person I am now.

List of worries: punctuation and grammar, pretentiousness, stupidity, pointlessness, exposure, failure and ridicule.

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