Nikola Seren
Sep 4, 2018 · 2 min read

Serenity Seeks Chaos

There were times when Serenity just wanted to let her hair out and run wild. She thought often of the freedoms others seemed to revel in. They were unattached to responsibilities or expectations, they flittered about in chaos that seemed not to bother them. They just LIVED!

Why was Serenity so careful and methodical in her approach to everything? Why did she contemplate every move as if it was a matter of life or death? Why…just WHY was she always wondering what everyone else thought she should do? These questions plagued her thoughts that beautiful spring day, despite the blissful sunshine and refreshingly cool breeze. These were the thoughts that managed to lasso the dark cloud hovering over her every day.

Sure, she was able to smile, at times even mustered a giggle or a laugh. Many thought she was the perfect example of peace and tranquility. Ha! She guffawed at the idea! Serenity couldn’t recall the last time she felt ANY measure of peace or tranquility. Yet there was no doubt she was an excellent actress in her efforts to convince everyone otherwise.

For years now, she had been going through the motions of life, trying to meet others’ expectations and needs, but failing to give attention to her own. This dismal neglect had left her empty and raw, nothing like the outward appearance she let everyone else see. But when she looked in the mirror, alone in her apartment, she saw the truth. She noted the sad lines across her furrowed brows, the dullness of her deep blue eyes, and the heaviness her shoulders carried everywhere.

It wasn’t always like this. In her youth, she was known throughout the community as “the chipper one” – always bright and bringing smiles to those who knew her. Time, however, had brought with it several experiences that gradually robbed Serenity of her very namesake. She was no longer without worry, no more would she fall asleep at night without prioritising her woes. Others may forever fail to see the truth, but Serenity knew her reality. She faced each day, wishing madly for a whimsical chaos to carry her away from such thoughts.

(C) 2018 Nikola Seren

Nikola Seren

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An imaginative romantic who loves to write and take her readers on journeys that ignite passion and delight the senses.