Published in My Shower Thoughts·3 days agoMember-onlyMy Brain is Never at RestGeneralized Anxiety Disorder is exhausting. — This isn’t a fancy article for a publication. This won’t be proofread. There are loads of typos. It’s just a raw dump of what’s been in my brain for sanity’s sake. Maybe the content will eventually fuel a formal submission, but for now…this isn’t it. Dear Diary… I met with…Mental Health6 min readMental Health6 min read
Published in Heart Affairs·Updated 5 days agoMember-onlyI Pretended To Be A High-Value Woman For A DayLow self-esteem makes it tough to demand your worth. — Do you know what a “high-value woman” is? It’s someone who is in touch with her feminine side, dresses classy, has a strong social circle, is powerful in pursuing her dreams, and takes care of her appearance. …Sex8 min readSex8 min read
Published in Heart Affairs·Updated 6 days agoMember-onlyCan Imposter Syndrome Apply To Love?Not just for the workplace. — I’m a Gen X chick in tech. That means most of my career, I was the only woman in a room full of men. Growing up in a strict Muslim house with mostly male cousins, I knew how to not make myself too flashy or draw attention. …Sex8 min readSex8 min read
Published in Change Becomes You·Mar 16Member-only7 Hard Truths About Divorce LifeWhat happens after you sign the papers? — I thought about divorce for years. Years. It wasn’t a spontaneous decision and it wasn’t easy. I researched it for years, to the point that learning more about divorce became my secret porn stash. I wanted to be as prepared as possible. There’s no question that going through a divorce…Divorce9 min readDivorce9 min read
Published in Change Becomes You·Mar 12Member-onlyMy “Inner Self” Is Different from My “Outer Self”I play the role of two people all the time. — Allegedly, there are people without a running dialog in their heads. On the flip side, there are those of us with Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD). Our brains are like a room full of radios and televisions turned onto different stations. If one is turned off, another one turns on. It’s…Mental Health7 min readMental Health7 min read
Published in ILLUMINATION·Mar 11Member-onlyWhen Will Divorce Anger End?It’s the gift that keeps on giving. — My divorce became final in December 2021. It’s currently March 2023. Why am I still suffering the consequences? Sigh. They say you never truly know someone until you divorce them. “They” were wrong. …Divorce5 min readDivorce5 min read
Published in ILLUMINATION·Feb 28Member-onlyThe Waves of DepressionThe burden of climbing out of its pit. — It shocks me that there are people who don’t have depression. What is it like? And when you do go through the blues, is the pain unbearable, or is it so brief that it’s barely noticeable? What is it like to not push down a hidden shadow every day that…Depression6 min readDepression6 min read
Published in Heart Affairs·Updated Feb 15Member-onlyDrinking With a Former Flame is a Bad IdeaLike, really really really bad. — It’s 7:30 pm on Monday. I’m driving to a ritzy, gated community once familiar to me. I’m going to see Sean, a guy I dated when I first embarked on my divorce journey. It’s been two years since Sean and I first met. He’s a bigwig in the medical device…Sex8 min readSex8 min read
Published in My Shower Thoughts·Feb 15Member-onlyTrauma Responses Come and GoCan’t it ever go away? — This isn’t a fancy article for a publication. This won’t be proofread. There are loads of typos. It’s just a raw dump of what’s been in my brain for sanity’s sake. Maybe the content will eventually fuel a formal submission, but for now…this isn’t it. Dear Diary… I’m over it. …Mental Health3 min readMental Health3 min read
Published in ILLUMINATION·Feb 14Member-onlyWhen You Need Money, It Becomes an ObsessionAnd I’m one of the lucky ones — I feel for stay-at-home moms who are forced to stay married because otherwise, they’re fucked financially. …Divorce6 min readDivorce6 min read