On drawing the thin line

I don’t agree with all of Gawker’s posts but I also don’t believe that’s a valid enough reason for it to shut down — just for the fact that I think the bloggers who write are some of the mad talented writers I have ever read. I grew up reading their work in college — and thinking one day I will move to New York too (and maybe tip celeb spottings!)

Which also brings me to the thought that eight years active on the internet and like Gawker, I too have no idea on where to draw the line when it comes to raw personal feelings. Is others personal for everyone to comment on? To like? To RT? Is it okay to make content pieces out of others’ personal?

A colleague said that he had heard, I have quite the following on twitter. He wrestled the handle out of me. He (claims to have) stalked me for more than 2–3 months and couldn’t fathom why I was popular. In his defence, I don’t understand why too (but I am very glad about it.) The cul de sac of this conversation is that I realised I no longer share my raw personal feelings on my page (my personal is not your personal)

Think, the reason is, in my mind, I still tweet like how I did for the 200 odd followers back in ’09 a la, #NowPlaying tweets. I remember a few years back when my followers hit the four digit mark, I was still tweeting like the sixteen year old I still am in my head and I got slightly bullied. I laughed it off online but I think I couldn’t shake it off mentally. Vented this to a friend, who told me, that’s ok — you should tweet what you want to and they should be able to tweet what they want to.

Since I moved to Bangalore — I’ve had the chance to build my family of friends thanks to twitter. Thanks to whom, I know of happiness which is not conditional. So I would be lying if I said I did not enjoy the attention — but I keep forgetting it isn’t just 200 people who read it for timepass during lunch-breaks at work. It gets harder to explain the context or reason it out in 140 characters. Not to mention, tougher to impress your bosses and people you’re in awe of, in your civilian clothes once they start following you on twitter.

It is far easier to get post views if it is extremely personal than it is if I say I have a cold. But think there is just a certain section of the population who can handle this constant scrutiny with grace and articulate better, and I am not one of them. I always feel that just because you’re someone on the internet, it does not mean that the universe owes you anything — and I would hate for my viewpoint to change.

For now, I will continue to tweet about the fact that I now have a cold.