Really nice writing! Here’s to wishing you the absolute best in your health journey. Just a thought on an alternative approach —consider ditching food prison.
Eat whatever you want, whenever you want, in whatever quantities you want. Then, slowly and deliberately, start to change your wants.
I have some thoughts in my health journey for how to go about this, but the actual approach is obviously going to be different with everyone. I found it far far easier than imagining one day I would get enough will power to actually stick with a diet I hated (I’ve now changed my food desires almost entirely, but not through withholding).
I failed for over 25 years on the withholding side. I still love hamburgers — I have them with BBQ sauce and lots of mushrooms. I don’t have them very often, but when I do, it's on my own timetable and I totally enjoy eating it, well as much as I eat anyways (I usually am not interested in eating all of it).
A good food decision in my mind is one that I enjoy before (during the planning), during, and after (as its digesting) eating the food.