It is incredibly difficult to get published. I have been published AND also rejected many times with the argument ‘your writing is exceptional’. The world of publishing and the world of writing are very different from each other. But I agree, writing is about being alive, being connected with yourself and the world. You may find this cynical but: one year is nothing in that uphill fight. I am glad I didn’t give up after one year, and I bear the scars from the ongoing battle. All the best!