So I’m 25 years old now and I find myself in a strip club like I have been for the last 7 years, wondering what the hell I’m doing with my life. The thing I’ve come to realise is that no one is going to rescue me from this strange little job - the Zack Mayo’s of the world are far too busy. And when I’m not dreaming of being whisked away from my co-workers, I’m working part time in a bookies. Not exactly an ideal situation I find myself in.

My problem, is my “get up and go” got up and went. Finding the motivation to place that first step into the unknown is a little bit terrifying. I’ve been in this little bar of mine since I’ve been legally allowed and the last 5 of them in the bookies. All I’ve known is perverts and gamblers.

I left school and college and I genuinely believed instead of going straight to university, that I’d get a better education in the real world. I’d travel, become the cultured bohemian free spirit I thought I could be. Then after a few years I’d come back home and study. I made the mistake of thinking I needed to save up a huge sum of money to be able to do so, instead of just strapping a backpack on and leaving, so I got the first two jobs that came my way. That’s where it ended.

So now, I’m really trying to figure out what the hell I’m supposed to do about it. Have you ever been asked on the spot “so tell me about yourself. Do you have any hobbies? What do you like to do for fun?” and draw a blank and feel like the most boring person ever? I’m not, by the way, it’s just the people that ask those questions tend to be people who go base jumping in their spare time when they’re not working as a research scientist in Dubai.

My plan over the last year has been to try and channel the things I like to do and find a way to be paid to do it. In a nutshell, the things I like to do are to travel, I like numbers, I love to be outside, I like to read, I love music and I like people. So I’m thinking maybe event management, travel journalist, holiday rep, that kind of thing.

In order to do those kind of jobs, I’ve kind of being running on a trial/demo mode where I’ve enrolled on short online courses on things like TEFL (teaching English to a foreign language), holiday reps, event management, marketing etc to see if I can find a career to pursue instead of jumping in blind.

Sadly nothing is jumping out at me just yet but waiting for it to slap me in the face isn’t going to work.

So that’s me. For now anyway. I’ve never been one to write a blog, this is my first ever attempt, but I’m hoping in doing so, it’ll help me work out what it is that I want and how to achieve it. Fingers crossed!