Is it even possible to put the pain of losing a best friend into words?
The person who gets you, understands you, disagrees with you but doesn’t judge you. It’s like a second you, not like an exact copy. Like a different version of you, the one you’d love to spend your time with whenever doing whatever. Someone you can laugh with, someone you can cry with, someone you can argue with. But at the end of the day it’s always ok, it’s always nothing but love. Until one day it just isn’t, and it’s absolutely heartbreaking. Reaching that place where you’re no longer good for eachother, that place where you’re so close but both so messed up by life that you’re actually toxic for each other. That right there is heartbreak. Knowing you have to take a break for a while, give eachother some space. Even more heartbreaking when that space turns you into something worse than strangers. I don’t even know how to describe this space I’m in. So cold, so damn cold, and I don’t even know why.
