Wondering where and when it all went so wrong. How I let it get this far down. How’d I let rock bottom reach this low point? And now I’m just here…

I really don’t even know what my life is anymore. I do know that I’m currently on vacation in suadi from a country I’m supposed to call home now, Sudan. No clue when I’ll actually be back to where I’ve grown up and lived for the past 17 years of my life. I would call America home, but I don’t think I’ve felt home anywhere for a while. That’s what I’ve been searching for, a place I can call my home. Someplace where I can feel at home.
In short, this “home” I’m in search for is still an unknown. Unknown place, unknown time, unknown people, it’s all one big unknown. I’ve learned to realize life is a sea of unknowns, all you can really do is know yourself to truly be ready for whatever and whomever might come at you. No reason for fear of the unknown,easier said than done I know. Trust me, I know.
I’ve also learned to take advantage of all opportunities. Make the best out of every situation you’re in, just because you’re not where you ideally want to be doesn’t mean you have to bask in disappointment and frustration. Do whatever it is you can do with what you have, don’t knock it until you try it. Literally just about ANYTHING beats staying at “home” bored and depressed, I promise.
