A couple things.
One, thank you for reading and for the kind words. All of that style stuff was unintentional; if it comes off as masculine, perhaps it is because I am a man. To be certain, this piece originally had no image. But then I went back, put one in there, because I’ve been told that people these days are like children — they won’t look things unless they have pictures.
Two, 66k followers here means nothing; how many are real people, maybe five or six. Probably even less than that. You are obviously a real person, so I am now aware that there is at least one real follower here, but beyond you I’m not so sure.
Three, as a musician (I consider myself a musician first, actually), I think you can definitely get too far up your own ass. Whether listening or playing. Because you get to a point where everything sounds the same, sounds imperfect, not good enough, and you start hearing things that other people aren’t hearing. Music becomes very granular.
With writing — or reading — I don’t find that to be the case. But there are limits to how much I can do anything, music, writing or otherwise. It’s at least just a couple of hours, then I need to do something else. So it’s not about doing too much, it’s about doing just enough each day, every day, to where you look back and realize you’ve amassed a lot of material.
The compulsion, maybe that’s true. With me, I don’t have a compulsion to write necessarily, more a compulsion to express myself. That could be writing, or it could be other things. Some years ago, all I was doing was playing the piano. That’s like, what I was into. I mean, I wrote during that time. Professionally. But if you asked me what I was up to, I’d probably be more inclined to talk about music than writing. That’s just where I felt the truest expression was coming from.
As far as writing being logical, it doesn’t have to be. One chooses to be logical or not. Some of the best writing, I think, tends to skew toward the illogical; more emotive and sensorial than analytical and that which strives to “makes sense.” The best writing, of course, is a blend of the two.
But again, going back to music, music can be logical or illogical — a person playing classical music, I wouldn’t say they are playing off of emotion; usually, there is emotion involved, just enough to make the work interesting, but they are trying to play with a technical proficiency, rendering the original composition as it was meant to be played. It’s very logical.
So, it’s just a matter of how you approach it. If I were applying logical thinking to what I was writing, most of it would almost certainly end up in the trash, or not have been written at all. It’s only with the suspension of logic, with the intent to sort of doodle or sketch, that I can even do it at all.
As far as Salinger, I think he suffered from PTSD. He had a rather juvenile, idealistic view of how the world should be, but knew that it wasn’t that way, and once he had the money and the wherewithal to exit it, he did. By exiting, he could actually control things. You could call that not being able to deal with the world. You could. I’m just saying, I’m not mad at what he did, and I could understand it.
Anyway, thank you again for reading, your thoughtful response and the kind words.