The journey is always worth it. No one ever said it would be easy, but I learn everyday that it is so worth it, & not everyone &:or everything can travel the journey with you. God brings things & people in & out of your life for a reason. The underlying reason is for growth. We never stop growing until we die, & even then, we’re still going, whether it be through others or just learning on the other side. I believe that after today, I have more clarity in my life. This morning at 8am, I was honored to be apart of a Riki class at my yoga studio with a guest instructor. His teaching methods were so amazing. I was challenged, yet so pleased with the end results. I felt like a brand new woman. I honestly didn’t even feel like getting out of bed this morning, but I had already made a commitment & felt like I had to go lol. They say the hardest part is getting there.
Afterwards, I went upstairs to the bathrooms for a shower to get ready for church. I wasn’t sure if I was going to attend my church home, or the church my parents attend. I ended up going to my parents church because honestly, I didn’t have enough gas in my car to make it to mine. I ended up going alone because my mother had to travel for her Zumba & my father wanted to give his back a rest. Anyway, I did not expect to get what I received out the service & the people. I began to get emotional when the pastor was saying that God wants to see me happy & that he is always with me. I have been going through some things as far as my relationships with certain people in my life that has just made me so distant with the rest of the world. I still pray, but my relationship with God has not been the strongest since like the summer.
I was able to be more vulnerable with myself & with people who don’t even know me from a can of paint. I understand that I am not perfect & I never will be. I can not live for others & I will not live for others. This is my journey. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, but everyday stressors & just life in general can make it rough, but I know my faith needs to be there “in the middle of it.” Even when times get the hardest, I have to remain joyful. It gets hard. It’s heartbreaking to have to let go of people you truly love because they’re toxic to your well being… & even though I have to let go of them, who’s to say we won’t cross paths again? I believe I met you to grow from you, & vise versa. I need to stop feeling like I’m obligated to be in people’s lives to help & benefit them, when in the process, the only one who’s benefitting is them. It’s been almost 2 years since I’ve been consciously aware of the fact that I have a tendency to compromise my happiness for others… that is not healthy. I can not truly be happy or make others happy if I m not happy with & by myself.
I wish everyone the best, but I am honestly ready to fulfill my destiny & so what I was out on this earth to do. I have to start listening to God more when he’s talking to me. I need to be more courageous. I am learning to be more courageous. I have a gift & I am going to let God use me, & I am going to use my gift through that.
I wish you all an amazing week. God bless & namaste ❤️
