It will. It sucks so hard to lose love. Fuck. I’m old and it still sucks: I’m going through something similar now. Well, as similar as a middle/aged person can be. I mean. I’ve loved and lost and been the one to leave. And it always hurts. She has a piece of your heart, and you, hers. It was a gift that still is a gift. Remember those feelings. Know that you can feel love for another. And move on. One small bit of advice: be sober the next time you have sex with someone who is or could be important to you. That’s a gift. I’m not saying you shouldn’t have drunk sex — I’m just saying the first times with someone you have the potential to care about should be something you remember with a smile, not a hangover.