Jen, I appreciate this feedback so much. I really do think it’s possible. My social worker and therapist (I’ve been with the latter for 8 years) this week both said that that was a label I gave to myself. I know I have done some terrible and regretful things when I have been hammered. I cannot drink like that anymore, but here is the bigger part: I don’t WANT to drink to the point of being shitfaced. I had a pleasant buzz that night, I was happy, and I went to bed at 11:00. I am still grappling with this notion of moderation. Because I seriously can and have drink copious amounts, but for a far longer time, I drank socially and responsibly. I really am a work in progress. And I cannot and will not say ‘never.’ Because I’m not a liar.

Finally, thank you so very much for your kind words. It is so nice to connect with others and talk about our shared human experiences! Have a beautiful day!