So much bipolar in the span of several days. Hoping the handful of meds will continue to help and that I can get enough sleep to keep myself settled. It’s hard wrestling mania, agitation, fear, depression, hopelessness, energy, brilliant ideas, debilitating loneliness, the need to live fast, and the desire to die all at the same time. Feeling chaotic and crazy. The type of madness that’s too hard to hide. Rapid cycling is exhausting. I’m just trying to survive until I cycle through. I wish they would find a cure for this illness.