4 am Thoughts

I have been blogging for a long time but took YEARS off. I started off a music blogger which was Very rewarding and got me into some amazing places with some amazing people. I dabbled in life blogging for a little while, but it never gave me the oomph as music blogging did. However, I continued to write. Writing has always been one way for me to release stress but lately I have found that I’m a little over protective of my thoughts. Finishing off my book, and on to book number 2, I couldn’t help to think what if so and so thinks this character is them. I mean it could be them but what if its not? How are they going to feel? That’s me always putting other’s feelings before my own and that’s how I always get into a predicament. If you read my books when they are published, you will understand that last part in the previous sentence better. I’ll admit book 1 is juicy as F*CK! The story its self will have you on the end of your seat and I’ll say it first here, its truth! Who’s truth? It’s up to you to decide!
The past me has always put everyone before myself. Even though I’m a very blunt person… I always catered to others, silencing what I needed and wanted. Moving forward that’s a NO GO! I know this will cause me to lose some people but if setting up boundaries to protect my heart, feelings and soul is going to make people leave, then were they for me? This also goes for those who were supposed to be friends but really weren’t, you know those who were there ONLY when it was convenient for them. The last couple years I have became such a people pleaser. Promising to keep every secret that was told or asked of me even if it limited me from my truth. If I loved you, I kept it, I played by every single rule you asked me to. I gave so many chances, apologize even when I wasn’t the one in the wrong. Supported no matter what. This time, this go around will be ALL for me. I deserve everything that I have giving out to others to give to myself!
Love those who genuinely love you. You are #loved!💞
