Kenan I resonate with a lot of what you are describing, having had some financial success with startups, experiencing how money changes you and those around you, starting a family, and so on.

I also know the struggle with the moment-to-moment choice to either be present and grateful to what’s right before you vs the impulse to run away, back to the comfort of old patterns.

As someone who seems like he’s great at practicing and mastering new patterns, you have an amazing opportunity to become someone who “is cut out to be a stay at home parent” if that’s what you want.

There is no right or wrong path here, just a recognition that money and all the other trappings of success don’t change you unless you let them. You have a choice, and you seem to be choosing your suffering at the moment.

With Respect and Love,

— Rafe