I have so many things going on in my head right now, I started a week ago listening back to the old music I used to listen to when I was a teenager, before I say anything about that let me just tell you how fucked up I was at that time, I was weak and I had absolutely no personality, people never saw me anything and I didn’t see myself as anything too, I tried so hard to make my peace with those people but I’m still not fully free, anyhow I hate the person I used to be, I hate how weak I was but now I feel that I pity her, she had so many great things inside of her but she never was sure about herself and that made her the weakest.

Back to the now me, somehow I got so confused and I can’t now draw the line between the old me and the now me, I’m so confused right now I feel that I want to stop writing because it’s getting too complicated, but I have found a part of the solution, I’m never going to look back at that person I used to be, I’m never going to remember how I was treated, I’m never going to look back at any of this, and I will say goodbye to anyone who will ever treat me how I was treated.

I want to promise myself to not look back at anything that represents old me, I want to let go of everything she was, everything she did, including old pictures, old writings and even old music