I’m scared I’m scared to death that I’m going to be just another girl, just another normal girl with a boring life, married at her early 20s, all she cares about is her husband’s lunch or her baby’s diapers, I’m scared to be just another soul whom would be forgotten soon, just another life get wasted on nothing, never changed anything, never lived a life she wanted.

sometimes I wish if there is a magic stick to show me the right direction to create my happy life, I’m so so so scared to live a life I don’t care about, so scared to not be strong enough to face what life throws at me, so scared to just be another boring girl with a husband who literally control her life with a baby who makes her life 100 times worse, and her dreams seem so impossible, I’m scared to give up on myself, to stop learning stop challenging myself stop loving the person who I’m.

so scared to not live the life I pictured I would be living.