I’m trying to change the way I see myself and the way I feel about myself, it is sad to always see the worst in you and it is even sadder to think of yourself as this great person, I found that if I stayed connected to the part of me that I admire I become so much more comfortable with myself and with my surrounding and everything feels so good, but somedays you wake up and all you can think about is the way you screwed up in the past, it makes you feel so fucking fucked up, I woke up with this feeling today, I guess it’s pmsing nothing serious but still I don’t want to feel this way, so I’m going to force myself to kick this feeling out of my system.

I want to try pushing myself toward the person I want to be, cause we are always changing and I want my change to be for the best, I don’t want to lose myself to that insecure part of me.

bey.