I’m taking a break from social media for 10 days, I just survived my first 4 hours, I’m getting bored quicker than I thought to be honest but I think I’m gonna get used to it, anyhow, I didn’t delete medium from my phone because this whole thing was because I feel lost and I feel that I don’t know who I truly am anymore and I know for sure that writing is going to help me figure this out, I’m not sure how is this going to end, I’m not even sure if I’m going to benefit from this break but I wanted to try it anyway, you know what? I absolutely forgot how good it feels to write everything in your mind, I forgot how good it feels to just let yourself go and let the words write themselves.

I feel for the past period of my life I gave people too much of my energy until I reached a point where I’m weak I’m just weak and people control so much of me, I hate that and I absolutely don’t want it here, I worked so hard on myself not to be crushed just like that, I worked so hard to understand who I am and know how to express myself, and I think this break will insha’allah help me with that.

My plan is to spend so much time reading, to sit with my family more, plan the project I’m working on, clean my room and maybe rearrange things.