The Day It All Changed

I looked at my trophy case

only to find it overflowing with

participation awards and second

place medals.

(aren’t they the same thing?)

I looked at my journals

only to find meaningless

scrawlings and lists about

forgotten days.

(do the dates even matter?)

I looked at my reflection

only to find a half smoked

pack of cigarettes and

yesterday’s coffee.

(where’s my lighter?)