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Glyne J. Gittens
Code, Hip-Hop, Inner Growth.

Procrastination is Ruining My Life.

The peace of mind that I lose for a few hours of more peace.

As I am writing this, I am in a moment of great emotion. In that regard, please excuse any grammatical errors or spelling issues.

Every day, like most people, there are tasks that I need to complete. Some tasks aren’t very urgent; others should be completed within a certain time frame. The issue that arises in the situation of most of my urgent tasks is that the cliche “Time is Money” holds truest to my current situation in life.

I currently work part time as an intern for a software development company. I don’t make much and I have bills to pay. Even if I have the money to pay a bill, I will hold off on paying it and accrue extra charges. In other cases if I have books to return and I have the option of extended the date online, I won’t take the 30 seconds it takes to renew the book; instead I opt for the extra charge. I was just fined $100 for a book that they gave me 3 extra weeks to return to the UPS location right by my home.

Procrastination is an issue that I have been dealing with my whole life. It’s strange to think that I am 23 years old now and I still have not put an end to this. There are a lot of posts online about people who have been procrastinators their whole life and never get over it. They seem to “find ways around it” or “learn to work really well last minute.” The thought of this delayed lifestyle being the same for the rest of my life is depressing and just doesn’t seem possible. Especially in the case where I feel like I have so much control over my life except for when I have to deal with laziness.

I have heard all the advice in the world about this stuff and books about changing habits and such. They make it sound a million times easier than it actually is.

I am sure that drug addicts use the same radical excuses that I do:

  • I just need a change of environment
  • As soon as I get this 100k paying job I can go get help
  • This is temporary. I’m going to stop tomorrow
  • It’s my family’s fault that I’m like this
  • Once I finish college…
  • You deserve a break (said after a week long break)

At this point I don’t know what else to do. Hopefully I’ll write a post a year or two from now explaining how I got over procrastination. Until then I’ll stare out of this window and pretend I’m somewhere else.

~Stay Golden.