Why is it I care so much? Why does my heart ache? An ache, a craving for being wanted.. it’s so stupid.
Why do i care so much? I see girls with guys clinging onto them. I think, “wouldn’t it be nice to have that” but I know that it’s a waste of time, nothing more than a moment.
And then it’s gone.
That feeling disgusts me, it makes me cringe, wishing I hadn’t even thought about it. I know my value, I know what I deserve. Not a one night stand, not a tinder boy. Not a superficial conversation about school.
I deserve more. Because I’ve become more.
I know it’ll happen. Somewhere out there is someone with exactly what I want. Someone who understands the language of the universe. Someone who cares about the poor, dying world. This person knows me, will understand me and who I am and why I do the things I do.
One day. Maybe I’m college, maybe later on. Some day, we’ll meet.