I Will Learn To Love Life Again!

Laura Annabelle
Aug 27, 2017 · 3 min read

To start tonight’s happier moment, I would like to talk about how I’m doing mentally and every area of my health that’s important. Everyone here in the Happier community makes this is healthy and safe place to talk about anything and not have any fears or worries about what others will think as if I would post anything like any posts I’ve posted on Twitter, (never mind on Facebook completely; red alert: my mom, parents to say rather); and I’m so proud and happy to have discovered this community because of all that I’ve gained, learned and experienced with this amazing app, all because of you all and Nataly Kogan!

To speak next, I’ve been experiencing some mentally unstable or rather concerning moments lately while working my shifts at Walmart. On Friday, August 18th after I failed my drivers test the second time, and a certain amount of time into my shift that day (4–11pm), I found myself feeling super emotional yet so much that I believed that I’d be better off at home relaxing in some comfy clothes on the couch with my cuddle buddy (Franka, cat) watching a movie on Netflix than working the rest of my shift at Walmart! But I was unsure of how and who exactly to talk to about that and if there was a chance they would let me and be supportive in my decision in leaving my shift early.

And yes I did make a 2–3 posts around that day talking about how I was feeling mentally and what I was thinking/believing… And I gotta say they were quite clear and I’m glad that I became aware of what I was feeling and experiencing for my mental health. My mental health is so vitally important to me, and I’m only gonna do things that will benefit positively to it, nothing that goes against my rule (if something puts my mental health at risk, I’m not gonna bother considering it at all); and that’s all I can say about that!

One other important fact here that I’d like to cover a bit tonight, is that since my whole birthday event and all that went down that whole weekend, it scarred me enough to the point where it taught me to be less honest, open, etc; and others such as well the “special treatment” you get on your birthday, well I barely got that at all, very little, no I for sure got none, other than the usual hangouts and conversations I have with my best friend which the both of us had during our dinner, movie, etc before shit started happening, the amount of support I got from my cousin, Kim who did great enough on her end when others didn’t pitch in their support for me nor give me enough “special treatment” that I truly deserved regardless of the early recovery stage with depression, being on Lexapro.

To finish my point here, I’m saying that I don’t know what it actually feels like be given the “special treatment”. I don’t remember what that’s supposed to feel like, I really don’t. I will be going into more detail later this week, most likely tomorrow, Monday, if not for sure Tuesday.

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Laura Annabelle

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I'm just someone who believes that she is extra-ordinary, is trying to figure out her life while living with many mental illnesses! #staystrong

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