The Power Of The Voice
The voice that changed everything in all the right directions! The possibilities are endless!
Today is #BellLetsTalk Day and I’d like to dedicate this post to sharing important and new facts that I have not yet shared with my friends and family about my health.
As you may all know after all the previous shared links and posts in 2016 that basically gave the idea that I was suffering with depression; well I’m sorry. I did not plan to get that message out in that way.
Since I came home from college, I started recovering after going through either my first or second depression episode which happened from November 2014 – April 2015.
“It’s how she works through her fears that makes her strong!” ~ Unknown
After all the difficult, challenging and hardships I went through in that time even after that, really changed me in ways no one could expect at all. And then I started relapsing which started June 10th when I first noticed/felt my first symptom of the relapse: not feeling like myself as a few others as well.
After my relapse started, I gradually continued to get worse. But by the middle of September last year, I came to realize after noticing that my symptoms were getting worse by day. It wasn’t till October 4th when I got my diagnosis by my pediatrician who I’ve been seeing as a patient for over 10 years. I started my first antidepressant trial lasting 6 weeks as of October 7th. Within the first few short weeks on the new meds, I had struggled along the way as later in October was my birthday celebrations with friends and family.
I’d like to apologize to any friends and family for my behaviour at my family birthday party celebration turning 20 years old. I didn’t speak nor was all that sociable at those events for I couldn’t speak due to both the stigma around mental health and the effects of the new meds and/or my depression. I really did not intend to act the way I did. I had originally planned to speak openly about my mental illness and diagnosis as well as my recovery at my birthday celebration but for lacking my voice, and other symptoms associated with my mental condition, that never actually happened.
But regardless of all that has happened in 2015 and 2016, this is a new year. And I would like to start achieving yet living my intentions, dreams, passions and my beliefs this year. And one picture or idea of what I mean by this is speaking openly about my mental health overall my advocacy for mental health as well.
As per all my hard work in about 21 months since coming home from college, I have gained more than enough knowledge, education, intelligence and more to use it wisely by helping others in tough times with their mental health issues and struggles.
No matter what anyone is going through, society nor our own selves should put any shame or overall stigma around speaking openly about mental health.
Mental illness is nothing to be ashamed of. But stigma and bias shame us all. – Bill Clinton.
I’ve been advocating for mental health probably since I started recovering but more as I progressed. I’d also like to add that I first felt no shame in my mental condition regardless of the fact that I hadn’t gotten my diagnosis till October, in May last year. As for May being Mental Health Month and the first week of May being Mental Health Awareness Week.
To me, I’ve become more than just an advocate for mental health, I’m someone who believes so strongly in equal rights, positivity, overall all good things that we all deserve as individual citizens of society.
I would like to conclude this long message, that I’m proud of all my accomplishments and will continue advocating for what I believe in, being optimistic and creative like I love and enjoy every much as well as posting inspirational posts relating to my beliefs, values, priorities and mental health.
I really do appreciate the time you took to read this message.
Stop obsessing over what you dislike about yourself. You cannot change those things, but what we can change is how we look and treat ourselves. In order to be kind to others, we must be kind to ourselves! So why treat yourself with so much hate, shame? You don’t deserve that kind of treatment for yourself.
You deserve to care for your body like no one ever has. Before you can love someone else, you must love yourself first. Also remember that the brain is so important to the human body. And without it, no human being would exist, period. So why should we continue treating ourselves and bodies like we’ve been for so many centuries?