101 Words On A One-Year Death Anniversary
Nov 3, 2022
365 days
Of sleeping with a half-finished homemade blanket
Yellow with speckles of baby soft colors
That smells of sweat and dried-up tears
Of a mother lost in a childless existence.
365 days
Of sitting at a dinner table
With the ghost of a child that should be here
For her first bites of this and that
Her first laugh and smile and word
Firsts that never existed.
A lifetime
Of crushed hopes and dreams
Of missed birthdays and milestones and love
A lifetime of “would’ves” and “should’ves”
A lifetime of your absence
Being the only thing that’s always present.