For Once in a Long Time, I’m actually “Okay.”
I was raised with the firm belief that no matter what you are being paid to do, you give it 100%. Whether you’re wearing the “In Training” sticker on your name badge at Tim Horton’s or the CEO there’s no half-assing anything. Whole-ass everything and if you’re miserable and don’t feel like doing the work, let somebody else do it or keep quiet and do the work.
Picture yourself as one part in the mechanism that runs the whole machine. If you’re lazy and don’t want to work, you’re considered a broken part. Parts are replaceable, most times.
Slightly less than 2 weeks ago I quit a full-time job with benefits, salary, development opportunities and so much more. I was an event planner and it was a great job where I was lucky enough to meet celebrities, talk to the big shot agents and make ideas come to life. If I do say so myself, I was pretty damn good at it too. One thing was wrong though, the company I worked for had TONS of broken parts or ones that didn’t fit in the first place. Sometimes the machine can’t be fixed by removing a ton of bad parts and replacing them with new ones.
This led me to resent the work I did, although I did love it because of the people I served while doing it. I dreaded going into work every day. I questioned whether or not what I was doing was truly for the greater good. I partially felt as if I was was becoming a broken part, if not just severely damaged and close to disrepair. Let’s face it, I was broken too. In both physics and brain functions, nothing is ever 100% efficient. The more stress you put on anything, it will eventually break.
I spent 6 years with my previous organization and I can easily say that for about the last 2 years I was looking for my opportunity to leave. I still worked my ass of with the resources I had but the time came and I knew that it was best for me to leave and let somebody else carry on the foundation that I had created for the organization.
I left that to work on a 6-month contract doing shipping & receiving. About the same pay when you average out the hours, if anything maybe a little less. No vacation/sick time unless I don’t want to get paid, no benefits. Fairly mindless work but here’s the thing, the company I moved to has one thing on my previous employer. The CEO and the lowest man on the totem pole all have a role and know that each part of the machine needs to be in tiptop shape. No wonder my new employer has been rated one of the top employers in the region for over 5 years in a row.
You might think that I’m crazy for taking this jump to what seems to be a lower level job but I’ll tell you right now even though it’s only been 2 weeks, I regret nothing.
Even though it may seem like a downgrade in type/quality of work I can vouch that it’s a huge upgrade. I get along well with my coworkers, they all look out for each other and the work is evenly distributed. A positive working environment where you can go home without any stress is better for your mental health than the opposite. My brain fog has been clearing up and the stress has been melting away.
For the first time in a long time I actually stopped and said to myself “I’m actually okay.” Instead of living in a world of panic and anxiety, I am finally living in a world of foresight and desire for prosperity for the future.
It’s not always easy to escape the stress of our day to day lives but my best advice to you is to always self audit. Every. Damn. Day. Even if you’re in a tough situation, it will save you from becoming another broken part.
Thanks for reading.