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You wrap your fingers

Around mine,

As I watch you

Watch me.

“I’m so out of it,”

I say as often as I can.

“Yeah,” you say,

Everytime I do.

We talk about random things:

The shape of a donut,

The cars in action movies,

How to best hide a dead body.

We laugh our lungs out,

We go dead quiet on each other.

We scream, sometimes,

And we hold each other.

Everytime I look at you,

You avoid my eyes.

Everytime you at me,

I look behind you.

Everytime we take this walk,

Everytime you hold me tight,

I want to tell you what’s on my mind.

But I don’t.

After every night we go to sleep

Holding each other,

You pretend that it didn’t matter,

And I play along.