Your article makes so much sense. I’ve been a christian for many years and realise that it’s always been so much effort to keep going as a christian and I feel like I’m ready to stop. I know I’m a mess and I’m currently finding it hard to forgive myself for feeling such a failure. I’m sort of hoping that Jesus shows up and points me in a different direction. I don’t know if what I’ve written makes sense — I hope it does?