Brandon, Thank you for sharing. It takes some serious warrior-like mojo to 180 an attitude and lifestyle. Kudos, friend.
I struggle with the same things you do, although oppositely. I’m mildly to moderately motivated, but mostly I just want to live a Joyful life. I often feel a little type A would be good for me, but as the Chinese Proverb you quoted so eloquently puts it, tension usually results.
I’m simply not that type of person and the more I try to be, the more my tension builds. As I write this, an eviction from my apartment is pending, I have very limited resources, and I just started a new job.
A way to keep this 1000 dollar a month apartment (pretty salty in Indiana) is forefront. My question was and still is, why? Why keep it? What for? I surely do not want an eviction hanging over my head and will work with the courts in any way possible. But, why am I so attached to this place? One reason: status. Status is rather stupid. I’ve spent the last year of my life trying to be something I’m just not. I’m a hoosier-billy and belong in the woods or very close to a large swath of woods.
I’m a barefoot kind of dude who became enamoured by billion dollar entrepreneurs, techie startups, and money. Not because I have or had it but because I didn’t. Money motivators, in my opinion, are weak motivators unless a person has absolutely nothing and needs a few pennies for a drink of water. That isn’t motivation or behavior modification, either. That is just plain cruel. Anyhow, I’ve rambled enough and am becoming tangential. Again, thanks for the article.
