How to Write Free-flow so Issues Appear like Magic!
I didn’t know I had characteristics of low self-esteem.
Up until the last few days, if anyone had asked me about my self-esteem, I would have said it was medium to high. Most days I am confident in myself, confident that my writing doesn’t suck. Confident that I am a good Mum to the boys. I am able to stand my ground if anyone called me to account over my weight.
All in all, pretty much okay.
I now think I am wrong.
I wanted to write a piece or a series of pieces on self-esteem. Yesterday I began researching and writing. I wrote about some characteristics of low self-esteem, then I realised that some of them applied to me.
First of all, diet. People with high self-esteem exercise regularly. People with high self-esteem look after their diets. While I do try to eat fruit and vegetables every day, I know my exercise programme is not good enough.
It was improving before I had my operation at the end of April. I wrote about it here. It took a few weeks for me to really get better, and I didn’t do enough walking during that time. I got out of routine.
Since I have had the operation, I have found that my ME/CFS symptoms have worsened, which has left me feeling weaker.
These things are true, but I still feel like I am making excuses about walking. I need to get out there in the fresh air and walk. I need to do it every day.
I used to walk 10,000 steps per day every day a year ago. I loved it. Even when I got rained on and soaked through to the skin! That happened on two occasions and I came home, showered, changed and shrugged it off. Laughed about it.
These days we have gorgeous weather, and I can’t drag myself out there. Maybe it’s because I know I will have to build up my steps again. I don’t know the answer— I wish I did. I read all the motivational posts about exercise and yet, I cannot seem to get into a good routine with it.
The second issue is social anxiety.
