MentalDessert
Jul 25, 2017 · 1 min read

Awww wow yet again thank you so much! I normally think that my brain, and the way I am, is something that not too many can relate to. It’s just because with where I live people tend to be a lot more avoidant and not as ‘straight up’ with things so that’s frustrating. I know what you mean by keeping people at bay every day.

I could highlight your whole comment but instead I resisted. Ah, the sneaky bastard that find a way in. I’m keeping them out, because it’s a combo of bastards and it’s scary enough with just one. They’re good though, and help me expand my tiny little world I live in. I just prefer for them to rely on me versus the other way around.

And make them think they’re slightly important, but not as much as they are wiggling their way into my life. It’s fucking terrifying this year to be letting people in and everything within me is like throw gasoline on this shit, run, and recluse the fuck of my life already, damnit!

It’s hard to resist this urge, a constant battle and so much easier to be by myself. Relying on others means possible disappointment. And I don’t and haven’t needed friendships for validation since I have a very strong self image to the point people call me cocky. But, I do enjoy helping others find out how awesome they are.

I’m loving your comments, thank you again and I’m flabbergasted you can relate but that’s way amazing. ❤️

MentalDessert

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I'm unapologetically me with a hard edged view of life. I love to travel and have crazy amounts of fun spaced between quiet moments.