I. Am. Weak.

Sabrina Gutierrez
Aug 9, 2017 · 2 min read

I am stronger than this

My heart is so weak but my mind is so strong

I know what I deserve

I want so badly to be heard and understood

That if it takes me a couple more times to keep going.. I WILL eventually be heard and understood

One day, you will realize I was not the problem

That I walked away because you pushed me

I walked away because what you offered was never enough

I was not worthy enough for you to respect and treat me well

I walked away because it gets me to this point.. where I write negativity instead of positivity

I am weak

I’m weak because the moment you come back to me, I take you into my arms with no questions asked

I am weak because when we’re not together I find myself blaming only myself for why we aren’t

I am weak because when you come back there should be consequences but instead there are benefits

I am weak because I will keep this in my notes and continue to be mistreated

I am weak because I let you blame me for your mistakes

I am weak because at my end point, I always try to find a little more tolerance for you when there shouldn’t be any

I am weak because I will let you walk all over me

I am weak because I let you make excuses for poor decisions

I am weak because I will realize all these things but still want to keep trying.