Eeeeh, I would be tired even before getting to know you, with all this loooooong story.

Yet you are indeed a very, if not even, an exceptionally attractive lady :-)

But my o my, you talk and talk and talk.. YOU express 10 times more worries than possibly can exist..

Try something new next time you date. Only open your mouth to propose some action, to breathe, drink or eat. Ask no questions. Answer questios with mmmmmh and the tone of voice. But remain quiet. No words except what is asolutely necesaary.

Then open your 6 senses and sniff in with full power. Record. Experience. And let no question bother you. Let any question popping up, vaporize.