Yes, Yhwh does love you, even enough to allow you the free will to choose to send yourself to eternal damnation, if that is your choice! Until the 2nd coming of Jesus, He will NOT cross your free will choices; but they do have consequences, one of which is that righteousness MUST be satisfied, and a choice to remain in rebellion against Him nullifies the free gift of grace to cover your sins. Luck will not help, nor will “good deeds”. Righteousness MUST be satisfied before mercy is extended. That’s the nature of Yhwh. NONE of us can do so on our own merits, but if we continually throw back in His face what Jesus did for us on the cross, by our own choices we’re negating that grace.