From Lesbian to Celibate to Married Woman
So, what is this blog, really? Why this new corner of the internet dedicated to me and my thoughts?
I feel like I have a story, or at least, people have asked me to tell my story more than once over the years. And since I’m not very good at holing away, working on a masterpiece for years, and presenting it, spotless, for consumption, I’m going to publish this memoir post by post.
I’m a married woman now. I’ll be ten years out of high school as of this spring. I might even get pregnant soon. I’m at a turning point in my life, and before my brain undergoes a factory reset to make room for all the upcoming memories, I have to write about a particularly exciting story arc in my life: my transition from lesbianism to Christian celibacy to Christian marriage.
At times, I have felt like the main character in a grand, cosmic screenplay written before time for the purpose of helping anyone who might be facing the same questions I was:
Can I be gay and Christian? Is this “right”? Which is more fundamental to who I am, my gayness, or my Christianity?
There is an endless, unbroken stream of LGBT people asking themselves those very questions and looking for answers amid the collective wisdom of the internet. I want my story to be part of the mix. Hoarding it all to myself would defeat the purpose of how painful and beautiful it really was.
As much as I can, I will chronicle my memories in order and, where I can, scan in photographs or journal entries to make things more interesting. My goal is to publish a post or two every Saturday. I hope it will be comical, captivating weekend reading for you.
Thank you for your readership!