Blog Post #1

Sitting under the large tree after graduation, I thinkthink about Zeen and the small talk we had. Ever since I was a little girl, Zeen has been there for me, and we grown closer together than i have with any of my other brothers.

I start thinking about what would have happened if I was chosen for The Testing. Would Zeen and I grow farther apart? Would I lose him for good? Zeen is the only person I can go to when i have a problem, or am in need of someone to talk to. Losing Zeen would mean losing something immensely important to me.

I sigh, knowing how much Zeen wanted to be chosen for The Testing. Did he feel as disappointed as I do? If I was chosen, would he ever be able to look at me the same again? Or would he avoid my eyes, them being a constant reminder of his crushed dreams.

Everyone in the Five Lakes Colony was aware of Zeen’s smarts and capibility, so when he wasn’t chosen for The Testing, it was a surprise to all of us. I think most of the girls were quite happy, though, because they always seem to be throwing themselves in his direction, in hopes in him changing his decision about marriage. I am ecstatic that he stayed too, of course, because it would be devastation if he left, and I like to lift myself up in thought that maybe I was a reason he didn’t pack his things up and leave.

Every once in awhile, I would find him in a bitter upset mood when he would see me working my hardest, dreaming of going to University. I wish he didn’t do that, for it made it hard for me to talk about school problems with him.

Luckily, Zeen is the type of person to shake things off and not be too bothered by them quickly. I smile realizing just how much Zeen means to me, and how important he has been in my life.