I never wanted to grow up.
Always I have refused to act my age and accept reality.
Why would I want to take responsibility for anything or anyone?
It’s exhausting, constantly
What reason is there to do that to myself?
On the other side... isn't it easier to just accept it? At least I can't just stop myself from growing up, can I?
Now slowly I begin to realise that with the responsibility also positive things come.
As exhausting as it is, it's a great feeling when younger people are looking up to me, notice me and ask for my advice.
I have always liked helping people and suddenly I get so many more chances to help.
People actually are asking me for something, because they need me and they are taking me seriously and this feeling is eventually worth everything else.
Maybe adulting is not 100% bad.