I visited Virginia Tech shortly before the shooting. I am from Europe. It was quite a thing to be in the audience in a gym hall, as I only knew from tv, watching the ceremony, the students receiving their diplomas, all dressed up, again, as I only knew from movies and tv shows. We were officially invited — what an honor. The joy I witnessed, the ceremony, the people smiling, to hear about the shooting broke my heart.
Reading your story, it breaks again. Be well.