The time is finally here. My long awaited debut album, I Will Stand is set to be released this fall. It has been a few years in the in the making, and one heck of a wild ride! Because this is my first album, I thought I would do something different. Each month, up until the full release, I will feature one track from the album to bring you behind the scenes, and give you an in depth look at the song. Plus, all of the featured songs are available to download now exclusively from Bandcamp at SMTtunes.com.
The songs on the album run the roll coaster of emotions. There are fun rockin’ songs, there are funny songs, and there are songs that dig a bit deeper where I pour my heart out to remind you that I’m here with you and you are never alone. With Mother’s Day being this month, its only fitting to feature a song about true love.
Reconnecting with Unconditional Love When You Feel Lost, Alone, And Abandoned
Track 6: Looking Up To You
I was instantly infatuated with country music because the songs are about real life and contain the raw emotions that we feel in our everyday lives. Country songs remind us that we are not alone — and we are not. Ever.
All humans and animals have one special thing that bonds us all together — we all are here because we were loved. Loved and nurtured by our mothers, even months before we could breathe the air of this world — before she knew our name, our gender, and even what we looked like. That is true unconditional love. Through sickness, pain, and worry, she never stopped loving and nurturing us.
She even loved us through one of the most painful moments of her life — our birth. As she raised us, she cared for us with all she had and loved us with all of her heart. She sheltered us from danger, kissed our boo-boos, read us stories before bed, instilled hope in us, taught us to believe, held us during thunderstorms, and rocked us back to sleep after scary dreams.
As we got older, she’d still be one phone call away to comfort and encourage us in our times of trouble — from that first big heartbreak to that time we messed up and realized it on our own. She supported our ambitions to venture out on our own, prayed for our safety while she lie awake late at night wondering if we were ok. And she always welcomed us back home with open arms if our hopes didn’t pan out or if we got down on our luck.
She always assured us that “it’s gonna be alright.”
I was fortunate to have a mom that stayed close to me as I grew unto adulthood. As a mother lion hesitates to become separated from her cub that’s physically challenged, knowing the cub will be in danger when left to fend for itself in the wild, my mom naturally worried about my vulnerabilities in the adult world. Her motherly instincts even made her strong enough to beat cancer after suffering with it for three years.
However, after being cancer free for about a year, it came back in full force, causing mom to be hospitalized, become unconscious, and pass away, all in one week. While she was still able to communicate through faint gestures, she was still trying to comfort my brother Greg and me by pointing upwards to signal that Heaven was calling her. She then closed her eyes and fell into a deep sleep. I was unwilling to accept the inevitable and couldn’t stop crying. That is, until a good friend and pastor, Father John, handed me a small painting of Jesus sitting defeated in prison, bound with shackles and chains.
He explained, “this is what your mom is going through in that bed right now, but just like Jesus, she will be free and be born onto paradise.” Father John’s words gave me a much better understanding of what was happening and reminded me of the faith and teachings that mom instilled in us from a very young age. This enabled me to softly take my mom’s hand and gently whisper “It’s ok to go, mom, it’s gonna be alright.” She had become unresponsive by then, but she squeezed my hand, just as she used to do when we were little kids in church, letting me know “it’s gonna be alright.”
It is said that “a mother’s love never dies” — and that’s 100% true. A mother’s unconditional love and protection of us is eternal if we allow it to be. That is what inspired me to write the lyrics of “Looking Up To You.” I know that my mom is always watching over me. When I’m in need of comfort or protection, I turn to her and literally feel the warmth of her spirit cuddle me with love.
Your mom, or whomever it is that has ever loved and comforted you, will never leave you — even if they’re not physically present with you anymore. Turn to them like you have done, and they will continue to comfort you and let you know that “it’s gonna be alright.”
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