I wonder

I wonder if you know just how much I love you. If you can still feel it or if that connection has faded.

I wonder if you can feel the moments when I can’t hold the wall up anymore. Those moments when my eyes well up and spill over, when my vulnerability shines through.

I wonder if your thoughts are consumed in the same way mine are. If you replay every moment, every word, every promise. If you still hope for a future in which we defeat the odds.

I wonder if you know just how much it shattered me to walk away for a short time. If you realized that I did it for my own sanity.

I wonder all this and more my love.

I wonder if you miss me as desperately as I miss you…