My 2016

I am still not used to the year 2016 though it has started for two days. Our next semester will begin in a week and I only have 7 days to prepare for the exemption exam. Other students are now busy reviewing yet I am still on vacation mode. I know I need to do something but I actually feel afraid of the next semester. My head hurts when I think of the course workload and internship thing. I am really really scared of that because I know, from the bottom of my heart, that I won’t get any internship and my gpa sucks as hell.

I hope I can talk myself through this but it is really not easy for me. I have applied for lots of internship in my undergraduate and I failed all of them, either in application phase or interview part. This totally defeated me and I don’t think I can ever stand up to fight. I have very low self-esteem regarding this area. Plus, I don’t think I deserve anything and any good thing would not happen to me. I don’t know why but I just feel it that way. Maybe I know why. I feel my life doomed in some way.

Anyway, I am just writing some stuff to practice my writing and then go back reviewing my statistics. I think I can barely pass the exemption exam but I just try.