…Of Decisions and Deserts

If I take one step, do you reckon I’ll be going forward, backward or sideways?

Step.

If I turn, do you reckon I’ll turn to the left, to the right or back?

Turn.

If I jump, do you reckon I’ll fly?

Jump.

Broke. Broken.

Tense. In tense. Tens. Tenses.

Sentences, not statements. Do statements not come before the sentencing?

I did. I did not. I do. I do not. I will. I will not. I should… not.

Self-doubt is like a rose that I cling on to.

Is it weird that I knew about roses and thorns before I held a rose or felt its thorns.

One rose.

If I take one step, do you reckon I’ll be going forward, backward or sideways?

Step.

I stepped back.

If I turn, do you reckon I’ll turn to the left, to the right or back?

Turn.

I turned back.

If I jump, do you reckon I’ll fly?

Jump.

I jumped into the abyss of my memory, the desert land of my heart…

Where nothing grows but cacti, whose thorns remind me…

Oh, I remember you, Cactus number one.

The first time I…did. I did not.

Oh, I remember you too, Cactus from the other side.

Cactus in vino veritas…

The reason I like my wine white, but I’ll drink it red.

The reason I like vodka, but I’ll drink water.

The reason…

I lost my train of thought.

Why is it called a train? Do your thoughts make chu-chu sounds?

I must be living in the 20th Century. Do they still make chu-chu trains?

Isn’t everything faster than a bullet now?

Bullets.

Shots.

If you shoot at cactus, what happens to the bullet?

I should test that.

I thirst.

I’ll test.

Can you kill a memory?

Smother it with a fluffy pillow of new ones?

When you lay your head on the pillow of new memories, the scent of the old will rise from its ashes.

You thought you got rid of it?

It’s there.

Always.

If I take one step, do you reckon I’ll be going forward, backward or sideways?

Step.

I stepped back.

If I turn, do you reckon I’ll turn to the left, to the right or back?

Turn.

I turned back.

If I jump, do you reckon I’ll fly?

Jump.

Don’t step. Do

n’t turn. Don’t Jump.

I do… not.

I will… not.

I should… not anymore.