Coming Out with Ellen Degeneres

20 years ago today I wrote in my journal after I watched her historic coming out on her sitcom, Ellen. Since I hadn’t written it originally by hand, I have digitially recreated what the original post might have looked like on the page. Looking back, without Monica’s For You I Will single or the upcoming release of The Lost World: Jurassic Park — I would probably have been a lost soul.

Digital recreation of my journal entry dated 4/30/97

“Anyway tonight was Ellen’s coming out episode. And you know I am really happy for her. I know what it is like to not like the opposite sex. I wonder if I am gay too. I don’t really want to think about it but if it can happen to her it can happen to anyone.

If I was gay I could never tell my mom or she would just flip a lid, maybe that is why I won’t tell her if I turn out to be gay. Anyway it is really bothering me. I want to like girls but I just don’t have the talent for it. Like I said I am not into girls right now in my life. I just can’t take it right now.

Anyway I am totally into For You I Will by Monica which was in Space Jam. I love it! It is the coolest song. The Lost World: Jurassic Park is released in 23 days! I am getting so excited. Every time I see anything about it on TV I just get a feeling up and down my body. It is amazing! It is going to be so cool.

Anyway I better get to bed if I am going to go to school. So even if I am gay I hope not to displease God, I mean I would never have sex with another guy but maybe just have a crush on one.”