Communication Is The Key To Survival
Life full of separation and group behavior but not really being part of it
Learned languages and cultures I’ve my life so far to find out that I was really searching for ways to properly communicate and voice what I needed to succeed (live).
Did learn how to communicate needs in work environments — couldn’t pick up on successful signaling or even be part of the group when in a particular role. Had to always beeping more and other things. Abused by boss (power to suck the best out of me then leave me high and dry).
Went to the intelligence community because in earlier reflections of my becoming aware of myself, I realized that my experience and skill could and would only be understood and best used in the clandestine service. Never heard back from them but I became Kurt cagey and nearly mute not sharing what k was doing or swing with anyone until I had come up with something very important. Mystery and silence was so much easier than coming to face my big differences and silent communication struggles.
My two corporate jobs did by promote tech or encourage empowerment.
Susan — promised nurturing and to be her right hand and understudy saying that I was a young her and the minute I signed on board j never saw her
Alan — the worst abuser, manipulator and power hungry leader
Job hunt was never ending and no interviews were had. Over 1000 jobs applied to.
Moved to SF after burning man 2015.
Started working w very small babies. Curiosity and silent communication & nurture became very important for me to start to begin learning and becoming familiar w. Worked w 5 babies.
I’m the important revelations I then realized that I didn’t know how to share my ideas.
Without being fully aware of this yet, I was broke, bouncing from one place to the next unable to afford rent and hardly food and needed a side job.
Dated someone where our awareness of one another and ourselves individually was so off and became psychologically abusive.
Deep depression suicidal thinking from feeling so psychologically thwarted and really unable to communicate my ideas and my needs. Frustrations ran high replaying all that I had been doing and thinking in scenarios without understanding the how of where the communication blocks had been.
Started driving for uber and was with many more people all of a sudden and was able to begging explaining my ideas and work with the confines of a drive.
Started learning social queues, engagement, and the interoperability of my brain (gps but still drove my own route while having a conversation and having eye contact and being sensitive to my passengers personal space and becoming a good listener also. It was a great use case. I started deepening my connection to behavioral economics and government systems as well.
July went to priceless and have a developed talk on my work and ideas around communication was the key to survival and presented it as IT are the key to survival because it’s based on signaling and modeling analytics and deductions based off raw collected data. But when there is intent behind the searches of the future, and ethics in place, real change can be made. But what had to be recognized was: 1. What are the customs values and cultures hat are wanting to be passed down from Gen to Gen, where is safety and security in the mix and basic rights/access of survival, what does going from closed off to awareness to openness look like.
Issues arise — actually in all of us — if we do not try and pick up the ways in which we are mis-signaling or misreading signals.
I realized a very hard problem happening with my relationships of all kinds all because of this unawareness to my programming that was running during all of my scenarios (this is why that mysterious and enigmatic person was so attractive to me because I could literally become the highest object of desire and not need to be understood at all).
