The story of my break up 3 months on….

I just saw a picture of my ex with another guy I know. Felt really down. It used to be me in these photos and now its some one else.

I broke up with my girlfriend of two and a half years in September. I loved her deeply but I could not see myself with her in the future. Truth be told I was never physically attracted to her (just for a short while) and the rest of the times i just pretended to act interested. I hope you can figure out the difference. I really loved her deeply and it sucked so bad when it ended. Really bad.

She was great to talk to though. I could discuss so many things with her. Right from political issues right down to music and movies and things we both loved to do together. She was like a best friend. It wasn’t like that she did not have her baggage. God its such a pain writing it all down here. I don’t want to. Its like going back and analyzing each and everything again and again. I wish i could write this with greater clarity. I am doing such a bad job of doing this. I need to get my life in order. I think i will end this post here and not post untill I am in control of this.

Fuck even after 3 months breaking up is hard to do.