Hey, Pee Lin. Letter to a Dying Relative

Hey Pee Lin,

I just wanted to say that I love you and I’m sorry about where we left off last time we talked. I also want you to know that I think about you all the time, and reminisce about how well you took care of Eddie, Roy and I when we were growing up…

Even though I was young I still remember so many things. I remember exiting Benton Way from the 101 to your old apartment. I remember the garage sale you had, where I sold my old skateboard for a lot less money than I had hoped for. I remember your ex-boyfriend Steve Alagala. I remember his Camaro, and the time you guys took us to see a screening of Superman IV. I remember how dark he was. I remember you taking us to the video store to rent R-Rated movies. I remember listening to your albums. Bon Jovi. Oingo Boingo. I remember thinking of you as the Thai Maddona. And if I were to think hard enough, I’m sure can remember the layout of your old apartment. I still remember the brown Nissan Sentra with the broken trunk lock. I remember putting my finger in the hole and moving it up and to the right to unlock it. I still remember the banana milkshakes you used to make for us.

The reason I remember is because I still thought about you through the years. We haven’t seen each other in over 25 years but I still remember all love you gave us. I still remember how funny you were. I still think about Na U, and how much I still love her. I love her so much. My mom still cries for her every day.

I’m sorry for what you are going through. And I’m sorry that we will never get the chance to see each other again. I just want you to know that I’m thinking of you. I want you to know how much you’ve meant to me in my life. And even though I was only 8–9 years old when we last lived in the same country, I still remember. I knew how exciting, fun, and important my times were with you. I recognized how special our time was. I knew how important they would be as I moved forward in life.

I’m sorry to see you suffering, I wish you the best, and I will continuing thinking of you for the rest of my life. Thank you for everything, Pee Lin.