How many times a day do you get contradicting feelings?
As a mum, it happens A LOT to me! You know those feelings — where you know you need something to happen and you are so looking forward to it but you also really don’t want it to happen. You are confused by all the feelings and emotions that are invading you — happy and stressed, excited and scared, really looking forward to it and dreading it at the same time?…

Today is the first time that I left my two little girls for more than a couple of nights away – they have gone to their grandparents for a week — a whole week! Now arguably this is not THAT long and it is good for everyone but it was hard of course. I had been so looking forward to it… It will be that time where I can reconnect with my husband, that time to push hard on my projects, that time to go out every evening if I fancy it, that time where I can paint the house or do whatever I fancy whenever I fancy!!!
To be honest, I have impressed myself — I did not stress about it too early… It only really started the night before when I had to pack their suitcases and I realised I was simply delaying the process as much as possible! Then came the moment when their grandparents arrived and took them in their car… My babies were going away…. ahhhh — I was already missing them but I was also very much looking forward to it! I guess this is totally normal to feel a “little confused” with my feelings. Arguably, it was “another” of their “first times” and one of mine too. I think I am simply a mummy! :)
What I wonder as I write this blog post is – “do we actually always need those mixed feelings to help us moving forward?”. A bit like when you have to do a big presentation at work – excitement is there but nerves too and a bit of nerve or stress is good (as long as it is not too much)… it is a feeling I used to love to have! A bit like on a first date too… you have those butterflies in your tummy wondering how it will work out, if it will work out at all. Maybe this is what we actually need, feeling confident enough to express and welcome our feelings, to push those barriers and get us in an uncomfortable place to reach our potential… this next step in our life that we are all in the search for :)
I’ll leave you with that thought today.
Don’t be afraid to embrace the change and the mixed feelings that come with it… being uncomfortable is ok as long as you use it to move forward :)
A bientôt — Sophie
