The ‘fear’ to write

This has to be the worst introduction ever. Curt and direct that will encompass all my fears. So, I am not sure if I can really write. Since my childhood, most people found my collection of swamped thoughts ‘interesting’ and ‘with potential to grow’. What scares me the most is an innate fear within that harps on the edges and erodes my confidence.

A couple of years ago, I always visualised my writing skills and had so many stories to etch out. Stories that would be dark, bordering on paranoia with rightful dose of emotional pillage. But, now, as life experiences add on and subtract themselves, I am at a loss of words. They seem to be mentally making notes and fighting amongst themselves but nothing seems to make enough sense on paper. Is it my own emotional resolve that is eating away my confidence or do my fears actually mean ‘something’?.

I don’t know. I wish the explanations were easier to come by. But, then, that wouldn’t be a story worth telling, right? Hence, I am anchoring myself in this virtual world with a 365 day project. I plan to write / illustrate or do something creative and overcome all my fears.

With that, I hope people stay away from this Medium blog on a serious note. Because, for once, I want to write without fear of being judged. So, even if you read anything, pretend you didn’t. Thanks!

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